..third eye blind..

So its a Sabtuday over and over again. Not much can i say. Terbangun lambat la tadi. Kinda skipped my pathan lecture. Hate it when i do that. Its because i'm skema. Huhu. When i have some free time or when i'm bored, i bother myself with playing Football Manager 2008, and nowadays i'm playing the Dutch league, kinda sick of always losing, but hey, i'm always looking on the brighter sight of things. =)


Lately because i got no time of watching any movie or series, i resorted to just watching documentaries and Top Gear instead. Sadly, i'm already out of Top Gear episodes! And all the documentaries are about terrorists, Islamists, people with beard, and frankly i'm sick of it. But lately i've been watching this sort of Malaysian series lah, on NTV7, called Frontpage. Not your conventional Malaysian series i must say. Tony Eusoff looks good speaking English, but Jehan Miskin, well, you are better suited to Malay speaking rich boy material.

Yan the handball captain asked me to join the handball training again tomorrow, which i declined because i'm broke, i dont have the heart to play for the uni again, and i want to reserve whatever energy i have as much as possible. Meaning, i'm playing one sport only. Well, i do like football, and there's a try out i think later this weekend, but i'm not going either. I know my potential. Its painful, but to accept one's weakness, is to me,a great thing also.

And here i am, alone in my room..

..strawberry on a shortcake..

What the hell la this week. Its like every single day there's like some kinda exam. I'm burned out really,but what to do la,thats what i expect when i first applied to come here and further my education blablabla.. Got a new printer+scanner+copier. Ah. So life would be much easier this time around huh. Hoho. I think i got to get myself ginseng lah. Or maybe some sort of vitamins or whatever. Oh perhaps its because of the weather. Or perhaps because of all of those traveling to classes and hospitals. This printer is quiet cheap lah.




I'm still aiming to save myself 1000rubles a month from my monthly abah allowances. Because as people know, i'm not sponsored by any government bodies or any political parties. So that you know, abah gave me exactly RM1000 a month. So saving 1000rubles a month means saving, erm, RM130 a month. I spent about 10months in Russia, which means if i properly follow this discipline, i would have collected RM1300 by the time i go back home for holiday. Woohoo! Although that doesnt necessarily is the case because at times, i tend to overspent..Sob sob..This kotak biskut of Danish cookies is my faithful tabung. *Wink*



This blog is not exactly open to all people. I did make my blogger profile private,which means people wont really know the title of my blog. Oh unless they've noticed it on my Friendster account huhu. Its because really, i want to express myself fully here,without care for anyone else in the world. So if i rant and rave all i want, i dont want people to menyibuk or tanya all sort of questions. Its just me. Ok? Dont bother. I'll be ok. I just want to write all the crap i want.



Damn totally addicted to the Diary of Jane song.

.is this microphone on?.

So yesterday i played futsal again lah. The usual,weekly things. To her annoyance. I had some big aspirations yesterday, intended to score a goal too, since the fact that we always train with the opponents,and maybe i got some inside info,somehow i thought "oh yeah i got a fucking chance to score and celebrate like a madman!". Alas it didnt happen. I still had the bout of nervousness, and that usual butterfly in the stomach thing. Come on lah. There were lots of viewers, plus i'm wearing pink! So in the end, i played like cibai and was substituted for the second half. But hurrah hurrah, the game ended with us, Gastroboi 3-1 Akula. Hepi gile seh! Hehe. If in the end its like this, then i dont mind lah. But the thing is, i'm really frustrated with myself for not playing up to my standards. Shocking really.


Need more sleep. Cheers.

..humpty dumpty sat on the wall..

THREE NAMES IN YOUR INBOX CELLPHONE?
ckin, mok, peter

YOUR MAIN RINGTONE?
paramore- thats what you get

WHAT U DID AT 12 LAST NIGHT?
played fm2008

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON U WENT OUT WITH? WHERE?
her. uni

THE COLOR OF THE T'SHIRT YOU'RE WEARING NOW AND WHAT DOES IT SAY?
black. "red light district amsterdam.pole dancing contest"

THE LAST THING U DID?
updated my blogs

3 OF YOUR EVERYDAY FAVORITE ITEMS?
hp,food,football

THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDROOM?
wallpapered

HOW MUCH MONEY IN YOUR WALLET NOW?
around 70rubles.damn ramu charge me so much for some bawang!

HOW'S LIFE?
fucked up

YOUR FAVORITE CITY?
bbb rock planet

WHAT WILL U DO NEXT WEEKEND?
got klas tambahan

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME U SAW UR MOM?
august

WHERE IS SHE NOW?
home

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU TALKED TO YOUR PARENTS?
hoho

WHO IS THE LAST PERSON THAT TEXTED U?
ckin

WHERE DID U HAVE UR DINNER LAST NIGHT?
bilik adek

THE LAST SURPRISE YOU GOT?
never got one

..i kid you not..

Well, its been ages. Now that i'm preoccupied with my studies, the futsal blogs and all sort of stuffs, it seems that i have no time of my own. This shouldnt be happening. Damn well it shouldnt! Everyday its the same old routine, though i dont show about it, i'm actually pretty damn bored. Waking up early to rush to the morning lecture, then studying a bit just so i can barely pass my controls and colloqs. I feel like an idiot. We are all given 24 hours in a day, so why am i not able to muster of all my work in it?




I always blame myself for everything. I never blame anyone else. If my gf leaves me, i blame myself. Oh dude, that's your fault for not trying enough. If i miss the bus, i blame myself. Dammit, should've wake up earlier and run faster! So you see, that is the way i am. People can have their own perspective, but i think i will be forever like this.






Lately most of my friends have switched to Facebook. I dont know what the big deal is, i just dont care. I only join Friendster or Facebook so that i can see their photos, how they are doing right now, etc etc. You dont need to be so friendly to know more about your friends actually. Raya that day, wasnt really as meaningful as it used to be. Yeah my sis is here, but what about it? I think i lost the spark already. I've grown old i guess. I'm more worried about keeping myself healthy and able to go to class always, as i know that attendances are crucial more than anything. I dont fucking care if i fall sick, i'm pretty damn sure that i will go to class too. Well, thats me.





She's been quiet lately. I understand that she might be busy with her stuffs and projects, her being in the final year. So let her be lah. Though i kinda miss the laughter and stupid jokes of the dudes at home, Syamil, Zahid and Johan. They were really my crazy bunch. Dont wanna sound too gay though!







I've been playing futsal quiet a lot lately. Always training, always improving ourselves. The type of player that i am, i really go for glory, be it even if i am in one of the weakest team in the league. I'm really glad if we could beat the odds, and fucking beat all those other teams! Ya ha ha! There's nothing nicer than able to beat the stuck up kononnya big teams. I think that our Gastroboi team can go far, though we need to be a bit more consistent and more focused on our defense, which is actually really my job really! Hehe. As a defender, i tend to go gung-ho and attack up front at sometimes, which always leaves a hole at the back afterwards hehe.


Shit. Got Ali tomorrow.

..ash like snow..

Tired. That really sums up my whole week. Well practically everything, ever since I've started my 3rd year of studying here in Moskva. Lecture every day starts at 8.30 in the morning. Plus its Ramadhan some more. Actually I cant make fasting as an excuse really. I dont really feel hungry, as a matter of fact, I just feel dead tired. Travelling from one place to another, one hospital to another. I kinda feel that I've jeopardised my study a bit, ya la, being so tired after class, cook for buka puasa some more, settling stuffs, I dont really have a proper time to ulangkaji la, fair to say. Heh, but thats what keeps me going. And I think that, had I planned it nicely, I could really have faired nicely. Gotta keep my stamina up I guess.

Liverpool has been on the up lately. But kinda sad la seeing that wise old Sami didnt even get a slot in Liver's Champions League squad. Damn that Michel Platini. Though we do actually have a formidable bunch of hulking centre backs in trusty Carra, Agger and Skrtel. I'm not too worried though about Keano not scoring, as I think that maybe in some way, he will score eventually, and look at Kuyt, he's not scoring much, but he's doing quite ok what. So, heck. Aurelio is getting back to his devastating best, Arbeloa as sturdy as ever, baldy Reina doing his job solidly, Babel coming to his age nicely, Stevie and Torres being almost full to fitness and will be terrorising.



Ate at Papa John's. McDonald's. Sinbad. Subway. Damn I should really curb my spending.

..six pence none the richer..

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go