..when you were young..

I think I'm a shy person. Quite a shy person. I dont talk unless people talk to me. I prefer just to keep my earphones on and listening to my playlist. I'm not a people's person. And I'm especially not good when talking to girls. I dont really know what to talk to them. There are 2 conclusions whenever I conversate with a girl. Its either it will end up awkward and we'll both be silent, or she will somehow laugh at my jokes (although most of the time I dont know if I was even attempting to make a joke). Maybe because I dont talk too much, every word that comes out of my mouth turns out to be topsy turvy.

Paris was quite a nice place.

My friend Zahid knows this story. She was our classmate. I never really talk to her. Well, I never really talk to any girl when I was in form 1 till form 3 when I went to school in Bangi. She's nice. well spoken, and she's more to the polite side of girls that I know. When we had our class's post-PMR barbeque party, we were supposed to exchange presents between boys and girls, and lo and behold, I got a surprise present from her.. :D But disappointingly, my present was for someone else. Either way, that was the first time I got something from a girl, and I still cherished the wrapper and the small card that she wrote. The present was just a small stuffed animal, actually its a Digimon, called Togemon, and I think its somekinda keychain too, because it has keychain stuffs, whatever they are called.

Its like this, but much cuter.

Unfortunately, I lost it when I went to SASER. I think it must've been falling off my bag, or someone took it. But someday I'm going to get a new one back. After PMR, most of our classmates from 3 Amanah went to SBPs and MRSMs. She went to an SBP. In the meantime, I was always sending her email, sometimes chatting with her on the net. By that time, it was a great courage for me to be able to communicate with someone like that. We talked about stuffs, and she was very friendly. I could tell that she likes manga and anime, so we sort of have some things in common.. =p

Something in common! :D

When I was in SASER, sometimes before exams or something, theres a service, like sending messages or cards, something like wanting to brighten up the spirit I guess. So I guess I did send her one. Then she replied. And I replied back. And somehow we kept being in touch, but now with letters. I was sometimes embarrassed because she would send me letters in bright and colorful envelopes hehe..but it was nice though.. :D My classmate Shahrizal was our schools' rekacipta project participant, and he went to her school for the competition. I was pleaseantly surprised when he said someone send me a message. I dont remember what it said, but it was such a small thing, lipat2 camtu je. She was always creative I guess. I sent her a letter back to say thanks for still remembering me.. :)

Not something like this..but well..it was small..

After SPM, we still contacted each other, I didnt meet her face to face, only when we had our class reunion. And even then, I couldnt really muster the courage to even strike a conversation with her. To be honest, I kinda like her. But I know that I'm not prepared, and I dont even think that I'm suitable for her. But I hate it that I didnt even try to say something. To say that I like her, at least. I will still have a chance to meet her, as our classmates are always up to a reunion, and stuffs like that..though, I can only go back home once a year..But it was a really nice experience...Well, fellow readers..who is she actually?... =p