..medusas path..

Since I do look like a weirdo, it is just fitting that my taste of music is so just about the same. I dont really have a fondness for a particular genre, just that sometimes it happens to quench my thirst for music. So really, in the end, I dont give a shit. This is not in a particular order aite.


1. Linkin Park

- Lickmy Park. Although it sounds like a Korean name. Park Ji-Sung. Fuck that. The 1st mainstream album was cool. I think it was when I was about form1 or form2 kot. Everyone was into it at that time, I mean the sounds was like I never heard before, plus it was The Matrix mania at that time by the way. A clean rock act. They pride themselves on being called a boy band. Yup. Whatever.


2. The Prodigy

- British rave act first caught my attention when I got my hands on one of their album while in Russia. At that time I dont have a notebook yet, so my source of entertainment was a stupid, now unused radio. So yup I bought the CD. And I instantly got hooked to it. Think it was called Always Outnumbered, Never Outgunned. Rave on.


3. Slipknot

- Their incomprehensible vocals, heavy metal clinging noises and atheists ideologies all didnt mattered to me. Its the music. And it kicks ass. Plus the mask concept is kinda cool. Lose the mechanics suits though. I wanna have one of those masks. Preferably Joey Jordison's kabuki mask. Yeah. Angry bastards.


4. Juno Reactor

- Firstly introduced to them by the movie The Matrix. Wanted to hear what its all about so I kinda imeem'd the OST and out came JR. Seems like their other tracks not on The Matrix film sounds kinda great too. People say they're goa trance. I dont give a damn.




5. Disturbed

- Another one of those heavy bass and heavy voices. Nothing personal, I just love the heavy sounds. Just like Nickelback, Staind, Breaking Benjamin etc etc.


Out of ideas.

..kingdom come..

When I went back to Malaysia 2 months ago, I wasnt really a couch potato because every available night I might be going out berpoya2 (heh) or just hanging out with Johan and the dudes. But of the few, some has really caught my attention. Yeah.




1. Ugly Betty
- Not really that pleasing to the eye, but the American version of Colombia's Yo Soy Betty, La Fea was to me really catchy indeed. I mean, it didnt mattered if I missed an episode or not, because each and every one of it was different. I guess I never really properly watched the original version, but this one is kinda good indeed. A breath of fresh air from all those cliche 1hour dramas.

Hot Choc : Rebecca Romijn. Mystique huh. Heh


2.Bones
- Remember Angel? The guy from Buffy the Vampire Slayer who indeed got his own drama flick. He's back as FBI's Booth collaborating with the hot and spicy bone-loving anthropologist Dr Temperance "Bones" Brennan. Not since Mulder and Scully have I've seen such a likable duo on TV. Thats what I think though. The quick witted and all brawns Booth plus Bones' razor sharp knowledge and brain makes this series interesting.

Hot Choc : Emily Deschanel. She kicks ass. And bones too.


3. Mayday/ Aircraft Investigation
- Heck its been awhile since I've watched documentaries on Nat Geo or Discovery Channel but this one caught my attention the most. Well it doesnt help that I'm a frequent flyer too, so it kinda brings some chill to my spine too huhu from watching all those accidents. The details, graphics and re-living of the actual situtation bodes well for me, who for some time has grown bored of documentaries about digging lost cities and damn mummies of dead kings.

Hot Choc : Hot stewardesses anyone? lol


4. Criminal Minds
- Step back CSI, this is my favorite crime series for the time being. The uniqueness of the squad with each and every persons speciality with gripping the scene of the crime, makes it different et all with other crime buffs. Its twisted.

Hot Choc : AJ Cook. Tasty.


5. Family Guy
- No fat chicks. Haha. I loved that tshirt. Now who doesnt like the adorable football-shaped head of Steward Griffin and the jackass-thinking father Peter Griffin. Spoofs and bluffs of celebrities, presidents, heck, likely every other person on earth has not been safe of being made fun of in this cartoon show heheh. My kinda show. Who needs Simpsons.

Hot Choc : Its a damn cartoon. Are you sick?



Bahh..Too tired to type anything else. Ciaoaaaaaaa~~~~

..blood hunger doctrine..

What kind of person am I actually? I've been asking that question to myself for quiet a while. Am I too kind to some persons, that I actually set aside things even for myself. I always wonder how it is that I am willing to do the stuffs that I did, long after I even realize I. For one, I have great concern for the ones I really care the most in my life, and somehow I dont mind that it didnt give me anything back, and I happened to do this all the time. Why is it ok for me to still take care for her, even when I know that she's taken? Why do I always fall for the damsel in distress? Or like Jack Sparrow once quipped, a distressing damsel, quiet sarcastically.


In nature, I'm quiet the shy guy, but step by step I try to get away from my own stereotype self. Ever since I came back home to Malaysia 2 months ago, my aunts and uncles has said that I have differed somehow, more talkative, and more easy to get into a conversation to. I realise that this doesnt come from me alone, that along the way, she helped me, into being the one that I am now. Time and time again, I just couldnt frame myself away from her, and that I grew more and more attached to her. Is it because in my mind, I can see a bright light for us? Is it because in my irrational thoughts, she gives me hope and faith, and dont stop trying? Dont stop working? Dont stop...loving?



Though I know that I cant last like this forever. For the human that I am, I need to be comforted too, I need to be taken care off too. I sound quiet childish. Well perhaps I am. And I dont think I care. Because I dont think that anyone cares. They never do. Perhaps I'm better off alone. Perhaps its better that I dont hurt anyone else anymore, but myself. Yeah2 the age old cliche, "me against the world".. But its true though..Why being nice, when people are hardly being nice back to you? They always say that, dont things for granted. But what about me? Why dont you take me for granted? Why dont you fear that someday I'm away from you? Why dont you act like I will never ever make you a part of my life again? Why dont you?

..pocketful of sunshine..

Its a damn Thursday. And its been days since I arrived here on Monday. Well its kinda cliche but I really missed every single thing of Malaysia right now. You gotta love the freaking fast internet but still you cant replace what you have in Malaysia, food, friends, family, life, everything, and I wont change it for anything else in the world. AJ arrived here a day later than I was, he went with Emirates which was admittedly more expensive than mine,Thai Airways. Anyways, the most important thing is that all is well and safe now in Moscow.




Didnt expect the high rises of taxi fare from the airport, I kinda could have seen it coming since the high rises of petrol, but really, to expect that thing right when I stepped down from a plane, damn. Luckily got some more of my classmates so we shared an MPV for the cost of 3500rubles, which for me was okla that price, it was getting darker outside and I know we all were damn tired.




So for the first day I had the room all for myself haha. Nothing to do la actually coz the internet was still down and I had to go Strela to try connect it back. Luckily my broken and berkarat bahasa Rusia can still be used hahaha. Damn MosLanka wouldnt allow us to pay for our hostel fees first, I had a hunch that they're going to increase the prices. Shit la wei. Everyday I only eat my mum's sambal ikan bilis and sambal ikan bilis+tempe that she cooked for me. Heh. Feels like home.




In a way, I feel kinda relieved to be here, away from Malaysia, seeing that all of my dudes now is working or either still studying, and if I'd been holidaying all the time it wouldnt sound that right now wouldnt it. My life is here. In Moscow. I kinda hate to say it, but its the truth though, the path I've chosen. Haihh..Bosanla..The big Ruff is in my room lepak2 right now..Bilik die xde internet hahaha...